I feel like I'm doubting myself in a lot of ways. I don't like the feeling. I'm used to being totally sure of myself and of who I am and I feel like recently I've sort of lost that. I have a slight idea of where it is stemming from, but that's only the beginning.
I wish I had more close friends here. I love Cece, but as far as everyone else, I can't help but feel a rift between us. They're really nice people, but I just can't help but feel like we're just very different and it makes it hard for me to really open up to them. I wish that things with Matt and I weren't so weird/awkward (though I'm not sure why it is so much) because I really enjoy hanging out with him and Andy. They're the type of people that I would be friends with normally. Laid back, funny, and I have a good time with them. Half the time I feel like they just don't want me around, though. I just don't get it.
I love it here, I just wish I had more people around me that I could really get to know. It's tough to not have a real support system when I'm so used to having a really stable one. I don't know. I just feel alone.
I wish I had more close friends here. I love Cece, but as far as everyone else, I can't help but feel a rift between us. They're really nice people, but I just can't help but feel like we're just very different and it makes it hard for me to really open up to them. I wish that things with Matt and I weren't so weird/awkward (though I'm not sure why it is so much) because I really enjoy hanging out with him and Andy. They're the type of people that I would be friends with normally. Laid back, funny, and I have a good time with them. Half the time I feel like they just don't want me around, though. I just don't get it.
I love it here, I just wish I had more people around me that I could really get to know. It's tough to not have a real support system when I'm so used to having a really stable one. I don't know. I just feel alone.
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