we're just two lost souls swimmin' in a fish bowl year after year.

The more I think about going home, the more nervous I get about it. From everything I've been able to keep up with, I can tell that things have changed a ton. People who used to be friends are now treating each other cruelly, people are not learning from past mistakes and expect to be forgiven, others are hanging out with people that I would rather not be associated with. With all this, I'm left wondering who I'm going to hang out with when I return. I can think of a few people but that's really about it. It's going to be so weird to go from my huge group of friends from the summer to not wanting to see anyone basically. I'm just tired of people for the most part I think, which is sad. I think that some people need to get a firmer grasp of who they are and what they stand for because they keep bouncing around, unsure of what they want or stuck in one mindset. For their own benefit I think they just need to take a step back sometimes and realize that just because people hang out with you doesn't mean they're your friend and just because people sleep with you doesn't mean they want you. I don't know if this is making sense, maybe I'm just ranting, but I needed to get it out somehow.

All I know is that I am 100% stoked to see my family, play my damn drums, and sleep in my own loud, squeaky bed. 22 days and counting.