it seems as if these limbs belong to someone else, if i could only keep this all inside myself.

i'm really good at reading people and i think it's a blessing and a curse. on the one hand, i can understand my relationships with people more and i can avoid people who i get bad vibes from. on the other hand, it complicates everything. i don't know how to explain why, i can't articulate it. it's just this feeling that i have in the pit of my stomach that comes from being able to tell what people are thinking and wanting and feeling and it's not always something that i want to know.

i think this is why i have such a hard time really getting close to people and opening up.