Getting off campus was exactly what I needed. Lee was exactly what I needed. There is something so soothing about being around him. I respect him so much. He's so comfortable in life and I want that to rub off on me. He inspires me to live like that, to be spontaneous and happy and confident. I'm still struggling in trying to balance doing what I want with doing what others want. Sometimes it seems like he has all the answers. I know he doesn't, but he sure does a good job giving that impression. It was hard for me to get on that bus and leave. I wanted to lay in bed with him all afternoon, naked and listening to his heart beating, entwined in his fake-tanned comforter from days past. Everything just sort of disappeared for those few hours. I still love him and I don't know that I will ever stop. I'm okay with that, he makes me feel like a better person and always lifts my spirits.
He is the only one I ever want and that scares me.
He is the only one I ever want and that scares me.
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