it was so good to see him again. lounging around in the sun, occasionally making eye contact with him and giving him a wink and a smile, feeling his arms around me again - it all just made me realize how much i miss him. it was good to get everything out in the open and talk about where we stand. we both know that it just doesn't make sense to be together right now. and i'm glad. because i need to focus on other things. i want to date other people and do well in school. i want to live my life and work towards my goals and learn about who i am and i want to be okay without him.
and i am. i am okay without him. i think that's why i love him so much. we aren't unhealthily reliant on each other. we understand that we have some important stuff that we've got to do for ourselves before we could ever be together again. he's pushing me to do great things for myself and i appreciate it. he doesn't try to hold me back. he's encouraging and understanding. we complement each other very nicely, the peanut butter to my jelly.
now that i have this temporary closure, i'm ready to accept the way things are now for what they are and anticipate what may or may not lay in the future for us.
and now it's time for me to start all the homework that i've got ahead of me for this week. between a 15 page research paper about youth drug subculture, an evolution lab about clam shell patterns, and the occasional chemistry problem set, i've got no time for fucking around this week.
unfortunately, fucking around is what i happen to be great at.
and i am. i am okay without him. i think that's why i love him so much. we aren't unhealthily reliant on each other. we understand that we have some important stuff that we've got to do for ourselves before we could ever be together again. he's pushing me to do great things for myself and i appreciate it. he doesn't try to hold me back. he's encouraging and understanding. we complement each other very nicely, the peanut butter to my jelly.
now that i have this temporary closure, i'm ready to accept the way things are now for what they are and anticipate what may or may not lay in the future for us.
and now it's time for me to start all the homework that i've got ahead of me for this week. between a 15 page research paper about youth drug subculture, an evolution lab about clam shell patterns, and the occasional chemistry problem set, i've got no time for fucking around this week.
unfortunately, fucking around is what i happen to be great at.
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