These two posters hang side by side on my wall. One symbolizes the ideals that I strive for, however impossible they may be. For a fleeting moment in the 1960s, there was unity. There were people like me who yearned for something more than what we have been given, something more than the role in society that we have been assigned to. For a fleeting moment, we realized the infinite possibilities of experience and thought and ideas and love that we have.
And, in a fleeting moment, it was gone. Squashed by the conservative norms of society. Squashed by the real world that we live in. A world where people kill other people and destroy entire civilizations all in the name of greed and power. A world in which a single path should be followed, and those that stray from that path are shunned and criticized. A world that I want to change but feel completely helpless to do so.
I can't focus on my work. I'm only two pages into my 15 page paper and have barely started my lab. Giving myself long breaks between short bursts of working is redeemed only by the fact that I've got the entire day to work. I'll regret it come 10pm.
And, in a fleeting moment, it was gone. Squashed by the conservative norms of society. Squashed by the real world that we live in. A world where people kill other people and destroy entire civilizations all in the name of greed and power. A world in which a single path should be followed, and those that stray from that path are shunned and criticized. A world that I want to change but feel completely helpless to do so.
I can't focus on my work. I'm only two pages into my 15 page paper and have barely started my lab. Giving myself long breaks between short bursts of working is redeemed only by the fact that I've got the entire day to work. I'll regret it come 10pm.
I get lost in thought way too much.
1 comment:
Dear Nina
Do not despair - the best is yet to come. We just need to keep the faith and keep pushing on.
Have a cool day and I dig your blog.
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