some things in life may change and some things may stay the same.

I'm trying to reason out everything that is going on in my life right now. Part of me feels like I made a mistake leaving Australia so abruptly. However, I know that it wasn't a mistake. It was something that I had to do for myself, even though it was incredibly hard. It still is hard. It's hard to be home. It's all so strange, home should be a comfort. And I suppose it is to some extent, but at the same time it's so foreign to me. It just doesn't feel quite as right as I imagined it would. Things are different but the same at the same time. Perhaps I'm the one that's different. Realistically, it's probably just everything. It's crazy what time does... Time. I feel like time is one thing that I'm struggling to cope with right now. Unfortunately for me, time is one of the few things that is completely inescapable. I'm trying to comprehend the time that has gone by and the time that will continue to tick away and the moment that I'm living in right now. Past, present, and future. All so linked. What has happened in my past, recently and not so recently, will forever impact the way I live right now. And the way I live right now will determine the future. I think about all the people that I've met along the way. Some helped me, some hurt me, and some just made brief cameos yet made lasting impacts. People have taught me lessons and helped me grow and I hope to have returned the favor.

I'm not sure where I'm going with all this but it feels good to get it out at least. I guess I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that life is constantly changing and what you want at one moment might not be what you end up with at the end of the metaphorical day. Sometimes life throws you those curve balls to keep you in check. Sometimes great things pass you by and slip from your grasp so that something even greater can come along. I really hope that what I feel right now isn't destined for this fate, but I believe that's my naivety speaking. Besides, six months down the road who knows what I'll feel, who I'll be, what I'll want. Somehow that is the beauty and the burden of the whole situation. I don't know what will happen then, but I know what I feel now.

I just need to enjoy the ride. I'm bound to end up somewhere good.